So today like any other day I got up and had no idea what to expect from the day. I had the day off, so I figured I would get some homework done or try and accomplish something for the day. Little did I know that today would not be a day like that.
I had a long conversation with someone who I care about. We discussed options for me and my future and what I want and what is going to make me happy but also give me a career and a life I will be able to work with. I broke down today and cried and prayed and prayed some more. God is my strength when I am weak and more powerful than I will ever know.
I have a decision to make in regards to school and the future and what I want to do... I know that there are obstacles placed in front of me on a daily basis and I know they are there to test me and my strength. I know that I am a strong person and that I have so much to offer and have a strong faith. I have found that maybe my journey is meant to turn a different way now. I have decided to break down the careers I am interested in and see what is good about each and what are the possible cons of each one and just see where it takes me... Life is something we are meant to enjoy not something to hate. It is meant to be lived and experienced and a journey among many other things. I know I struggle with enjoying every minute of every day, but I know that there are days that are awesome and other days that well just suck, but they are all good days because God has a plan for us. I may not know the plan he has for me, but I know he has one and I am doing my best to follow the best I can with what I know.
I have to realize that my inspiration comes from him and that through him I have strength and so much more than I give myself credit for or allow myself to believe. I want so much from life and in order to do so I have to allow myself a chance before I just kill the dream. I have to go after something even if there is a chance of failure, if I don't I suppose I would never know what would happen.... God made us the way we are for a reason I am not sure I know the reasons why he made me the way I am, I know there have been points in my life when something happens and I go "that's why he made me this way" or "I am supposed to be here on this path" and at those points my heart is so full of love and excitement because I know I am exactly who I am supposed to be.
I have an idea of what I want and what I want to go after, but I am also leaning towards something else, but again it is going to come down to the list of pros and cons and the overall outcome of the situation for me to fully decide on what to do...
Life is not easy, but if it was then I suppose it wouldn't be so exciting and fun. I love myself and who I want to be and the person I am working on becoming.
I have had a day that I was not expecting to have today, it has no been easy, nor fun. I really thought something was going to end today and something else come from it. My heart was breaking when I thought about this. God only knows and has the answers to these questions...
That is all for now........
These lyrics I find inspiring and what I need to realize at times so I am sharing them...
You made me insecure
Told me I wasn't good enough
But who are you to judge
When you're a diamond in the rough
I'm sure you got some things
You'd like to change about yourself
But when it comes to me
I wouldn't want to be anybody else
I'm no beauty queen
I'm just beautiful me
You've got every right
To a beautiful life
Who says
Who says you're not perfect
Who says you're not worth it
Who says you're the only one that's hurting
Trust me
That's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty
Who says you're not beautiful
Who says
It's such a funny thing
How nothing's funny when it's you
You tell 'em what you mean
But they keep whiting out the truth
It's like a work of art
That never gets to see the light
Keep you beneath the stars
Won't let you touch the sky
Who says
Who says you're not perfect
Who says you're not worth it
Who says you're the only one that's hurting
Trust me
That's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty
Who says you're not beautiful
Who says
Who says you're not star potential
Who says you're not presidential
Who says you can't be in movies
Listen to me, listen to me
Who says you don't pass the test
Who says you can't be the best
Who said, who said
Won't you tell me who said that
Who says
Who says you're not perfect
Who says you're not worth it
Who says you're the only one that's hurting
Trust me
That's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty
Who says you're not beautiful
Who says
